Chise listened patiently, thinking it over. Loki was right, in quite a few things - her ‘figuring things out’ was not the end goal. It was a goal, but not where she ultimately would stop.
“Oh, right.” She didn’t want to waste the food that he had brought, so she took a plate, making sure to grab a bit of each, before politely taking a bite. “Thank you for the food.”
As she made sure to alternate between eating and talking from now on, she thought. “It’s… difficult in both aspects, I think. I’ve had so many people tell me to value myself, that they don’t expect things from me and yet… it doesn’t sink in. Not fully enough. My body often moves before my brain has processed it, in certain situations. So… I’m not sure what ‘being useful’ would look like here. I just get the feeling that I would know if I had done something.”
It wasn’t helpful, she knew, as the terms to define situations like that varied.
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Date: 2024-08-28 03:27 pm (UTC)“Oh, right.” She didn’t want to waste the food that he had brought, so she took a plate, making sure to grab a bit of each, before politely taking a bite. “Thank you for the food.”
As she made sure to alternate between eating and talking from now on, she thought. “It’s… difficult in both aspects, I think. I’ve had so many people tell me to value myself, that they don’t expect things from me and yet… it doesn’t sink in. Not fully enough. My body often moves before my brain has processed it, in certain situations. So… I’m not sure what ‘being useful’ would look like here. I just get the feeling that I would know if I had done something.”
It wasn’t helpful, she knew, as the terms to define situations like that varied.